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I Don’t Know What I’m Doing, But I’m F✰kn Doing It Anyway!
An extremely honest SpicyIvy manifesto.
I’m not entering the New Year with a color coded goal spreadsheet or a 5am routine. My mood board is more or less motivation to keep showing up for the things that actually make me feel like myself. Mainly: my brand/this blog, my creativity, and the slow realization that doing what I love is making me more comfortable in my own skin & mind again.
If I’m setting intentions, they’re not about becoming someone new. They’re about becoming more me again.
This year looks like pouring more energy into SpicyIvy and trusting that creativity isn’t a side hobby, it’s the thing that grounds me. Writing more. Making things. Letting my voice be louder without feeling like its stupid, and
It also looks like learning to stress less about shit that doesn’t serve me. Saying no faster(eh kinda already good at that). Not spiraling over things I can’t control. Breathing through wedding planning instead of feeling like every decision is a life-or-death energy sucker event (lol). Letting joy exist alongside the chaos.
I’m navigating health stuff, a changing body, and the weird emotional whiplash of trying to feel at home in myself again. Some days are confident. Some days are fragile. Both count. Confidence that isn’t loud and obnoxious, it’s quiet and returning slowly.
Family, work, life goals? They’re evolving. I’m learning what balance actually looks like for me, not what looks impressive online. I want a life that feels full but not exhausting. Ambitious but stable but still creative.
And yes... somehow I’m turning 29 in damn 6 months. Yikes, I know. Not panicking, but definitely aware. It feels less like a deadline and more like a checkpoint. Am I exactly where I thought I’d be? No. Am I more mentally myself than I’ve been in a long time? Weirdly, yes.
So no, I don’t have New Year’s goals in the “traditional sense”. I have a mood board. I have motivation. I have curiosity. I have a deep desire to keep building a life that feels good on the inside & not just looks good from the outside.
...ANYWAY
If this all works out, drinks are on me forever!!